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June 14, 2005
One of Those People
I was working tonight while I was eating this great bowl of organic vanilla yogurt, homemade yummy granola and a few blueberries (which I happen to think is equally as sinful as ice cream though somewhere I really wish that it's not) and I got to thinking, "Man, I hate VB.NET." You see, as someone who prefers C#, I hate that the little intellisense thingy magig thinks I actually like that it puts the End If for me. I hate it because I'm almost always in the middle of the End when it actually does it and then I have to backspace which takes longer than it would have to type End If. I then also realized I hardly ever mix my personal blogging with my "professional blogging." I actually have a professional blog but I'm even too ashamed of it to link it here and I think I've let the domain name slip anyway (shame faced icon here). I did good for awhile and it really networked for me but then I just never had the discipline to write about work that much. I have ego enough to admit that the discipline of writing about myself is just so much better and easier.
When having a discussion this evening about scheduling with The Husband again this evening I realized that I've become one of those people. When we discuss the schedule, the time slots for Myself simply are not budgeable. I can't even fathom the thought of not having my practice but I might say "Fine, I guess I have to quit yoga now," if we're arguing knowing that I don't possibly think I could but it sounds like a good threat :) I absolutely have to work but I also have to have yoga... and not only yoga but Mysore... and not only Mysore but 5 days of Mysore. We're going into this new "schedule/job/school being out" time and I'm freakin' out that I won't get to practice but I'm only doing it internally. I wonder would happen if I actually had the guts to say that outloud :)
Which brings me right back to the fact that I just don't have that same passion for programming anymore which is why my blogging efforts failed. I told myself tonight perhaps I'd start it with the ticket to PDC in the email but, you know, I could probably do it through PDC and then I'd stop again... at least I can own it (even if I do get lots of "yea, we thought you dropped off the face of the earth from colleagues that are playing in the middle of the field). I've now officially decided, from this move, that I've given up the "career." To go any further, I really have to move into an office job... and, you know, I have to practice Mysore 5 days a week now so that just isn't gonna happen. Law firms work two ways... they either don't allow "flexible" or they do. 99% of law firm are the former. So, eh, I'm one of those people now... My job is perfect, nah, it pays me half of what I should be making, there's no real "prestige," there's no room to "move forward" but it's entertaining enough that I'm not completely dispassionate about it ... and they like being in the 1%.
Posted by ashtangagirl at 7:27 PM | Comments (1)
Ah... I Love My Mat
I'm getting a bit tired of the June Gloom already... we've had such a wintery winter (imagine!) this year and I'm done and ready for The Sun to be shining... daily. I had to take The Son to school this morning so I got dressed early and made the mistake of forgetting my jacket in the car. As I stood outside waiting for the bell to ring, I froze my little toes off. Is this really San Diego?
I got to practice this morning and noticed one of the girls from Tulum there and another new face. Teacher training attendees arriving already! Next week will be C R O W D E D which means I'll have to get there early... which means practice might not be as consistent since The Husband started his new job and The Son will be out of school. I may just have to get The Nanny to come early so I can practice... is that so horrible?
I was excited to practice this morning. After 3 days off I just needed the mat today. I was happy that head to knees on the first pre-practice forward bend was easy... the hamstrings were happy to see the mat today too. My first four sun salutations felt easy... even Bs were relatively good... in fact, I did an extra B today just because. I'm really trying to figure out how to work with Tim during the Parivritta Trikonasana adjustment. It seems like he wants to draw my hip back as far as possible so I basically have to let go of it altogether, it then shifts back and he can pull it all the way back... he puts his elbow over my shoulder and twists me... if I bring my hand up a bit, he can turn me basically all the way over. Everytime I do this I wonder if I'm working with him on the adjustment correctly because it seems like I actually come out of the pose a bit...but I guess he'd correct me if that were true. Practice was great...my jump throughs felt awesome today (OKRGR? were they louder than I thought :>) Right before Kurmasana, OKRGR was at Supta Vajrasana and I saw him waiting for assistance. No one was around so I offered to help... Usually I hold the person's wrists or hands for this but OKRGR told me not to so I was just holding his knees down. I was pretty surprised because he didn't need that help, going down and back up on his own with me just keeping his knees down. When I was done he said to "Kurmasana is still there...." :) I actually liked Kurmasana today except that when I bound my hands then tried to move my feet in, my foot hooked on the edge of my mat and my mat got all twisted which then meant I had to let go a bit and then I didn't have a nice deep grip... finally Rich came and helped me get it back ... when the hamstrings are happy, that's a happy pose. I had a wonderful Setu Bandhasana today..it felt perfect.. my whole body was cooperating. I chose not to put something under my heels for Pasasana today. As I was doing it OKRGR (clearly he was next to me today) made a comment about me not needing something under my heels... well I don't to get bound.... but if I don't have something there then the effort is all in the balance whereas with something there I can really get a nice deep twist going on. Sometimes I really really want the twist and other times I feel like concentrating on the heels is more advantageous. I suppose that I shouldn't look at it that way... that I should always do the pose without a prop since it is possible. I'm still just struggling through Bhekasana. I think part of my problem might be pure embarrassment... I feel like I can't do this pose at all... although I did look at other people doing it today and they aren't getting as far up as I thought they were but I don't feel like I have *any* lift if I keep my heels down.
It's been like an hour since I started this post and I can't remember my train of thought. In the hour I've arranged to have some girls over for a flower reading at my house in a couple weeks. Hopefully I'll get enough really great women to show up (KIRAN!). I've also been officially contracted to be the yoga teacher at the conference in August. I'll be teaching 3 classes at 7am on T/W/TH of the conference. 45 minutes in length so they will definitely be intro. I'll need to have Kiran help me figure out *how* to teach them before then... I'm actually totally excited. Maybe what I can do is go watch Kiran teach a few times between then and now (?).
I've also managed to wrangle my way into having my boss pay for me to go to PDC this year... I'm totally psyched about it (and will have to find somewhere to practice in the mornings up there).
I have not heard anything from the insurance co :(
but I did get copies of these great pictures....
I just love this one:
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