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June 1, 2004
Time For Some Introspection
One of the things I find most amazing about the journey of life is how we can be so blind. I mean, at least I am. Throughout my life I can point to a vast number of experiences which all lend themselves to the same life lesson and I still don't get it. Maybe the goal is to see a little more of the lesson each time... and, you know, I'm actually getting there as I grow closer to 35 but I still haven't mastered it. I wonder if part of it is simply that I have that constant yearning to get somewhere, get something, understand it all. Sometimes I complain that it's tiring... but, you know, life would suck if I wasn't like this. It makes me tick. When someone recognizes that, gets that, it's truly a prideful thing (a whole issue in and of itself)... Internally Intellectual. So what has caused this spurt of introspection? In truth, I spend the better part of everyday in my head... but I had a really nice conversation with someone today that lent itself to my remembering some of the, uh, more difficult lessons I've had to process in the past wherein I've sometimes crashed and burned and sometimes landed safely. It's interesting the challenges of nature, the challenges we make for ourselves.. it's like getting up in the morning to do yoga... this is purely mental and I know it. If you were to ask anyone if I have mental willpower they would all tell you that I can engage amazing amounts of willpower frequently but I can't pull myself out of bed before sunrise to do yoga. I'm just not there yet but it is truly self-made... My other self-made challenges are rearing their heads right now... I'm interested in where the landing will be.
Posted by ashtangagirl at 6:09 PM