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June 27, 2003
It's Been Awhile
I always have a really great practice when it's been awhile... whether it is a rush of energy or something else, it is always so amazing to me when, after taking a break, something I've been struggling with comes to me. Tonight it was the extra inch or maybe two I was able to attain in upavisthakonasana and, perhaps more than the inch or two was just the naturalness with which I actually moved that far into it. It actually felt semi-normal as opposed to the grunting struggle I usually have to do.
My wrist held up pretty well but I only did the first handstand. It felt pretty good then but I didn't want to go too far... I definitely had to give it a few circular motions after tittibasana and kukkutasana.
Probably the most notable thing for me in tonight's practice though was the degree of relaxation and meditation I achieved in savasana. Savasana is not my most revered asana. I know many people that live for it -- I am not one of those. Driving home I tried to discern what the difference could be... Tonight we had a sub who tends to be more of a health club ashtangi. She's definitely got the practice but it's all about the mirrors. The other thing is she plays different music than I'm used to and much louder. In savasana tonight she played music very loud that was more...mhmm... poppy? but still with the new age thing going on. For whatever reason, that music really put me into the state.
Posted by shanti at 8:36 PM | Comments (1)
Freud on Decisions
I've been pondering this quote:
when making a decision
of minor importance,
i have always found it advantageous
to consider all the pros and cons.
in vital matters, however...
the decision should come
from the unconscious,
from somewhere within ourselves.
in the important
decisions of personal life,
we should be governed by the
deep innner needs of our nature.
[sigmund freud]
Posted by shanti at 3:02 PM | Comments (1)
Burns
I've decided I should probably stop alluding to having a yoga practice. For whatever reason, before I picked up blogging again, I practiced 5-6 times a week and, for the past few months, practice has been few and far between. I never went to practice the other night... my wrist has been sore and I felt it would be best to give it a rest. It is starting to feel better so I'll attempt first series tonight and hope I don't injure it. My xray came back negative for a fracture so my doc says it must be a very bad sprain... keep it wrapped and stay off it for "a few weeks." Well, a week is all I've got.
Of course, I could also remember that "for the past few months" I've been trying to work back into the full-time career world and likely that has more to do with my lack of practice than anything else. I promised myself my practice wouldn't suffer but, realistically, I have two children 5 and 2, a full-time job, co-op school responsibilities, a husband ... I don't know how I thought my yoga practice wouldn't suffer. Maybe when school starts in the fall, things will even out.
I've decided, after 15 years of using the highest sunblock protection available, that this year I'm going to get some color in my skin. It's pure vanity. I'm white. I think it looks hideous and I've decided to say screw it for a year. I even bought some real suntan oil instead of sunblock. I might regret it when I'm 60 but at 33 I'm really excited (and now you know how boring the full-time job, mom of 2 kids, wife thing really is :>).
Posted by shanti at 3:01 PM