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June 18, 2003
Single-Mom-dom
The Husband has been out of town all week...leaving me alone with two small children (one of whom is in his first week of summer vacation from school), a full-time job and a part-time nanny who is in Mexico. To those parents out there, I know I need say nothing more than I'm fucking tired. Today my littlest, sweetest little girl had the most incredible head twists arouind on the neck tantrum. I've never seen anything like it (well, maybe I have and I just can't remember). Unfortunately, it was in the middle of a work errand where, in my utter confusion and haste to exit the store where the store employees were actually shaking their heads and the other patrons were looking at me with the obvious "what an out of control parent that is" eyes, I bought completely the wrong things... and now I have to venture back. I think I'll wait until The Husband is home.
My FIL and BIL were kind enough to come down so I could get a couple of practices in. Monday I went to Yoga Del Mar for Michelle's ashtanga prep class... a bunch of people from Jimbos where there and a lawyer whose father I used to work for. It was a good practice but I had to pass the handstands as I had forgotten to wrap my wrist and could feel the impact after the first one. I made an appointment for Friday to have my wrist x-rayed as Michelle mentioned that, since it is not getting any better, it might be a hairline fracture. I also confirmed something I've been noticing lately. I am much more devoted to, in tune with, into my practice when they are not the typical gym class. While Michelle teaches a Friday night first series class, the rest of the gym offerings are by one instructor who does his own morph of "ashtanga" which generally means he skips anything he feels is too advanced (Janu Shirasana B/C Mari B/D) but adds in Hanumanasana. I never feel fully into it in one of these classes... I can't pinpoint why but I *think* it is because it lacks the true meditative quality of an ashtanga class -- the body knows where it is going and moves naturally into it while I'm focusing on my breath whereas in an untraditional "ashtanga" class I have to listen and wait to see where we are going next.
I finally got my Me & Ro Fearlessness necklace... I love it. I can think of a few people who would probably love some of their pieces (including the wives of a couple of my readers hint hint) -- I can't wait to visit their store while I'm in New York next month and I hope they have some of the more obscure sansrit pieces. Anyway, I chose fearlessness because I truly believe that fear is the one thing that holds us back most of the time... whether it is fear of something physical (like the fact that I simply can't go down into my backbend even though physically I can do it), something emotional ... I believe that many of our "issues" are rooted in fear. If I can become fearless or, in the very least, learn to handle my fears, I think my soul could become free.
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