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April 30, 2003
Is That Air I Smell....
After a few weeks of hell I finally feel like I'm catching my breath. The breath is shallow and high but, nonetheless, it is air. This is not to say that I'm not still running at break neck speed, I am, but it isn't half the crazed days of last week. The auction booklet has gone to the printer and come back, HOORAY! Now just to make it to the event and have it run smoothly.
I had a great practice the other night... I think the whole Bandha thing might have *FINALLY*, maybe, just maybe clicked (for a few asanas at least). I even managed to do Tolasana (lifting my lotus) for about 10 fast deep breaths. I was so excited as I've never been able to life my body weight before. I know that yoga is not supposed to be about "getting the posture" but, frankly, there is great thrill in getting something and progressing my practice in terms of strength and flexibility. I think this might be why I like Ashtanga so much. In all the hatha classes I've taken I've struggled looking around wondering where we are going next. I never found them relaxing. With Ashtanga I can let my mind go, let my body take over and really just focus on the process. For someone with my mind, that's heaven. I really try to be in the moment but I'm also constantly thinking "Oh stretch a little further, oh gain a little strength..."
Tonight I'm going to my first Ashtanga teacher's class -- yoga & dinner night with a bunch of yogini's that I practice with at the Club. It should be fun and it gave me a great excuse to make it to the wine store for some after practice wine (what that's not allowed?).
Posted by shanti at 2:31 PM
April 27, 2003
What An Update?
The months have flown by since I've made an update in my blog. The months have flown by since I've had the time to actually think about my life let alone write about it.
Since the last thing I was moaning about was breastfeeding, let's start there. Things are better. I've managed to cut The Daughter down to some semblance of nursing sanity and, while I still feel ready to be done, I'm not aching to cut her off tomorrow. We'll work it out.
Money. I have a job. It is so wierd how when you ask the universe for something it comes. For months I grappled with how I felt, what I wanted, what I felt I could handle. I knew I didn't want to go into an office, knew I wanted to do something either in my field or go back to school. I sent out resumes...nothing came. Then one night on the yoga mat I had this revelation. Just let it go. For two nights I dedicated my practice to letting go of my feelings regarding money and work. I ended my practice with the words "Let It Go" and wala two days later I found an add for the *perfect* job... only it was in Atlanta. I sent in my resume anyway and asked if they'd be willing to work out a telecommuting arrangement. They responded positively in 10 minutes. I started last month and it's going to be a great thing. I've already been back to Atlanta for a few days to meet my new boss and the rest of the IS team. I'm very excited though very busy.
I'm the Co-Chair of The Son's school auction committee and we are two weeks away from auction day. I have spent the last week up half the night working with my co-chair on soliciting, assembling, wrapping, grouping, labeling, data input and auction booklet creation for this year's auction. I'm proud to say we crested last years solicitation $$ net and just an hour ago we finished the first (and hopefully last) draft of the auction booklet. My life won't return to any semblance of sanity until well after May 17th but we're at a spot where I see the light finally.
My family is doing wonderful. We signed The Son up for Kindergarten at *gasp* public school.
My yoga practice has suffered for the past couple months. I still make it at least 3-4 times a week but the days of carving out 6 practices a week seem to be gone at least for now. The wierdest thing is that I have found with the few breaks I've had to take that I actually come back from them stronger. I'm not sure what that is about and I'm still digesting the possibilities. Now that I have a job and can afford to do more things again, I'm hoping to make it to the Ashtanga Center in Encinitas more often (or convince the people at my local gym that they have at least two dedicated teachers willing to teach traditional Ashtanga and they'd be silly to pass it up). I was thinking about the picture on my blog... one of my favorite asanas. This picture was taken over a year ago... I bet the picture would look much different now. I'll have to try taking a picture sometime.
Update me on you...
Posted by shanti at 2:39 PM | Comments (6)