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June 11, 2002
Ab Kickers
Yoga kicked my abs tonight! Jyl decided our abs needed a workout and we did lots of poses that aimed right for the midsection. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely need a good kick in the abs. My midsection is horribly invisible these days compared to days of yore but, boy howdy, was I burning halfway through them. I got my head to the ground on my marichasynas today. I love when I see some noticeable flexibility improvement. Yoga is not a sport, this I know but I am doing it for many reasons and one of them is to improve my body's flexibility.
Tonight really opened up something emotional for me too. I just wept on the way home. I'm not really sure over what but some random thoughts were: How sad it is that I keep an online journal; my marriage could be more loving but I'm too tired to really devote to making that change; I really, really want to be more athletic and svelte and I have really good intentions but something always comes up (and this must be my energy creating that "something") and/or I'm too bloody tired to actually do anything (again, my own making); my mom probably isn't open to receiving "the letter" but maybe if I rewrote it to be more understanding of how unopen she is?; I'm failing miserably with my diet (read lifestyle not "diet" as in "I'm on a diet.") and I need to get more serious about eating more fresh foods and sprouted grains instead of processed grains.
Posted by shanti at 9:13 PM | Comments (1)
Chopra Revisited?
So, remember my Mother's Day gift trip to The Chopra Center and my mixed review? I hadn't told The Husband exactly how I felt about the experience because I didn't want him to be disappointed that I was disappointed (LOL) in the gift he gave me. After some discussion, however, I finally told him what bothered me about the day spa: mainly that it was very confusing as to where to go once you arrived at the resort (The Chopra Center is now part of a larger resort), the meditation under fluorescent lights with the staff talking about food the entire hour wasn't what I expected from a "meditation class", the vibe was not a spiritual atmosphere but rather the more pretentious La Costa Resort & Spa vibe and lunch, while good, was put on my table and I was never spoken to again.
The Husband apparently sent an email to them with comments reflecting my dissatisfaction and they told him today that they want me to have the experience I expected and that I could come back anytime and do a "do-over." I completely respect their willingness to improve the outcome but, man, would I feel like a dolt if I actually went and did it! I would feel embarrassed to show my face, ya know? Also, I don't really want to do the yoga and meditation class again. A body treatment and lunch sounds wonderful but the glorified stretching class and their version of a meditation class just don't sound appealing to me anymore.
So, would you go? I know I should and The Husband really wants me to he was so disappointed and sorta angry given the price he paid but how do I get over the embarrassment?
Posted by shanti at 4:57 PM | Comments (1)
Straight Talk
I've been realizing over the past week that I have an incredibly difficult time maintaining eye contact with someone I'm speaking with. I wonder why that is. I have not noticed it before in my life but I am acutely aware of it suddenly. I divert my eyes, I look away. I'm relieved when my kids are around because I can "check on them" as opposed to holding someone's gaze. I feel sort of odd staring someone in the eyes the entire time I'm talking to them but I can't put my finger on it.
Posted by shanti at 1:00 PM