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February 8, 2002
It's All Just Under the Surface
Wow... well, a couple years ago I put all the feelings I had about the AMU fiasco in a box and threw it out to sea. I knew I had two choices. I could either stoop to the level of those people bashing me and hating me or I could turn the other cheek, speak my truth and live peacefully. I chose the latter. In reading the BLOGs, I swore to myself I'd not get involved... that I had worked long and hard to remove myself from the "loop", to not know what was going on, to get past it all and to let go of all the feelings. Like I mentioned at Dirt's, reading some of this has made me realize that a lot of my questions are still there.
I have been contacted by a lot of people I never expected to ever speak to again. I've heard different versions of the same story. I've heard what appear to be half-truths and truths and outright lies. I've received some beautiful apologies and I've given back what I can.
Tonight I had a very lengthy and theraputic ICQ conversation with Rhonda wherein we basically discussed the play by play of what we remember. It is interesting what one can piece together. I am really past the hurt but I am absolutely stunned at what I was told has been said about me over the years. Absolutely stunned that such outright lies could be propagated. Absolutely stunned and absolutely sad. It is a sad thing that someone could be so malicious. It truly is sad and I hope that in this lifetime or another a good lesson is learned.
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