It's been an interesting week. I have finally put my finger on why... because things are getting calm. Not traveling every other week, staying put for longer periods of time.. this is all helping me to feel stable and calm and centered. Yoga isn't any more distant than a Friday moonday. That's very, very good.

Practices are still, just practice... I'm doing my whole practice now at Mysore. Kapotasana was so free and open just last week feels horrible now. Isn't it strange how our bodies go through just as many "emotional rollercoasters" as we do?

I've also started to realize I still have so much to learn and to change the way I think about technology at work. It's a huge challenge that I don't think I appreciated until this past week. I'm trying to completely undo how I think about the technology and apply it, not at the bit level, but at the macro level.

I have some really amazing friends and they are here, where they were before I took a hiatus... and I know that even though I could apologize for working myself out the way I have, it's all okay by them. On Thursday I had such fun! My friends R & C came over. They are very girly and young. They are like the high school cheerleaders that I never hung out with.. all the girls who always dressed fresh and cute and hip, knew how to do nails and hair, put lipstick on after they eat. Only they are really awesome bitches too. I like the "realness." We opened some wine and R was going to dye my hair for me. At some point we were outside letting the dog out when we realized we had just locked ourselves out of the house. It was awesome. R, in 4" heels, broke in through a window (that I had literally just opened before we walked out) and we were saved.

And then the interesting thing happened. I was planning to have a quiet chill Friday night when.... I didn't. It was completely not what I was expecting to go out and do and, yet, it was the perfect thing because it reminded me that there is a whole world out there that I haven't had time to live in for the past couple of years. From the "smoga" dude to the nice lady at the fish store who picked me out two cool angel fish today.