I have a movie to watch tonight. It should be funny and I'm hoping it will take my mind off how I feel in general. I need to numb out for awhile.

I went to Intro to Second last night but I was trying my experience with the sports bra and, unfortunately, I hurt myself in Pasasana and didn't want to really finish... so I did what any good yogi would do, I sat out in the lobby and gossiped for an hour while I waited for the beautiful Kati to finish for our glass of wine date.

Thank God for Kati. Thank you Kati.

Last night I blogged. I typed a blog post that told every little last bit of my life for the last two years (it was quite lengthy) and then I deleted it. However I got here, I'm at the point in my life where if I could, if there really were a WABAC machine, I'd get in it without a second thought. I feel like I was at a point in my life where I was finally doing all the right things, making large changes to address who I was and who I've grown to be.. and then boom, I got bowled over by this huge rush of energy and the tail just went by. I, guess, in many ways that's exactly what happened.

Since I feel this way, I find it important to try to find anything that I feel has happened over the course of the past 1.5 years that I've learned, or some way in which I've grown... and I'm sorta struggling with that which scares me. I look in all the avenues: work, yoga, health, kids, etc. but I continue to struggle. I yearn to go sit on the side of a mountain somewhere. I need to plan a trip to somewhere, somewhere very soon.