I had a great day today -- I did productive things at work even. My soul is tired though... tired of being sad and tired of trying to figure out how to fit into the world that has surrounded me. I decided to take the sadness and throw into a full practice so I did primary at the health club tonight. The teacher is a student of my teacher so the practice is traditional... but I was so into myself and so into the feeling in my heart that I barely looked up through the hair that feel over my face. I vascillated between tears and serenity the entire practice... and, you know what, the practice was good. The backbending was phenomenal. My heart is so wide open that it actually hurts...