Wow. It's amazing when you remove something in your life that was causing you so much stress how clean and alive you can feel. I feel.. awesome. No, the universe hasn't filled me with the clues on what to do and where to go next but I simply don't care... life moves one day at a time and one day at a time the answers will unfold as I put one step in front of the other. My next goal in life will be to remember that whatever I do next, I won't be doing it as an owner and simply as an employee and work is work is work... and nothing else :) It will take a lot of consciousness in this for me as I tend to be an over-achiever incapable of doing less than what I view the right job in the right manner and thoroughly but I was never one to deflect a challenge either.

I've spent the last couple of days just feeling like myself. Hello Me.

I practiced yesterday and the hard truth is, whether it is because I'm not doing whole practices right now or not... I've lost Pasasana. I can't bind. I've been able to bind in Pasasana since my first day doing yoga so I'm not sure what it is. I have not recovered in the hips all the way (bummer since I'm doing second series Shasta week).. I can't get even my easy leg behind the head, or open them all the way in almost any pose... whatever caused the aches in the joints is gone but left the remnants behind. I wonder, however, if when I'm in a heated room (Seattle is cold this week) if things might change... I may try to hit up the new ashtanga mysore at 8Limbs this week... if I have a car... and see where practice lands with the collective energy of yogis in the room. In the meantime, I've been studying and breathing and practicing and eating right (okay, aside from keeping my glass of wine at night habit).

I'm ready for the universe (and my internal guru) to speak.

Jaya Hanuman