So I think it may be that the aches in my body are from a combination of hormonal and caffeine withdrawal... a few days ago, I forgot to go get coffee here at the hotel and didn't remember until about 5pm... when my head started to hurt. I figured if I went one day, I could just quit cold turkey. So now I'm wondering if the dramatic achiness of my body is actually just my body freaking out that I quit taking the BCP and caffeine all in the same week and completely cold turkey. 800mg of Motrin takes the pain away... but I find after 4-5 hours it comes back unless I take more. I am not clear if you can take 800mg of Motrin every 5 hours or if I'm about to kill off my liver while I withdrawal.

What I do know is that my brain actually feels much clearer without the caffeine. Yes, I have a headache but the fuzziness I am used to seems to be gone... the afternoon sluggishness I guess. I just hope the aches go away soon, they are nearly unbearable.

I've started the process of telling my professional affiliates to change their email address for me. The company has not announced (and likely won't) that I've been let go so I'm having to "keep it under wraps" that I'm a short timer. One person has figured it out but I'm insulted that the remaining peers of mine haven't been told. I guess being insulted does no good, the company seems incapable of doing the right thing for me or for anyone.

I have always stopped myself from blogging about my professional life which is why no one here knows where I work, what my title is, yada yada but when it comes to axing me clean and leaving me little to no ability to go get other work, I no longer feel any desire to live by what I would consider professional consideration. So dooce me... oh, wait, you already did that.

I didn't practice yet today... my body has been feeling so achey that I'm going to try and go in an hour or so when the sun moves to the other side of the hotel and less people are by the pool (there is nowhere but full visible public to practice here). I hope I can at least bend over today, yesterday the pain in my hips just attempting to left me in tears.

Thanks for all your comments and emails.... believe it or not, it really does help me to know and feel so much love and support. All in all, I am very at peace... I was miserable in this job. They didn't respect me or appreciate the experience I brought to the table and I should never have stayed as long as I did. I stayed for all the wrong reasons. I'm not worried about my ability to go out and get work... I'm an expert in something that has a shortage of people who even know what it is... its' really that I just want to stop the chaos of my career, find one thing and settle in. The Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation has the perfect job for me... too bad I don't know anyone there... :) Bueller?

Fly home from Mexico tomorrow... we've had incredibly insane weather here. What we anticipated to be 97 and horribly hot has been blissfully perfect due to the wind that has kept it cool. The kids love it here... The Daughter has become quite the haggler:

Purchasing a purse, a bracelet and then getting me a matching one for a sweet price. The purse is made of candy wrappres which she claims "makes it so tempting to eat a lot of candy."

And, of course, it wouldn't be a Cabo trip without the Bakasana on the beach picture... only I had so much sunblock on, my legs were slipping and my hips hurt so bad I couldn't hold it... but, hey, the old college try anyway.