I want to say thank you to the person who made such an honest comment to me yesterday. I particularly like this individual and have always felt that their honesty was pure and simple. The truth is, I have gained weight. I have been opting for the Thin Mints just one too many times. Tonight I opted for a banana.

Practice today was lovely. I did my whole practice. It was so lovely and I feel so cleansed. I decided I have to find my bandhas so I tried to lift, feet crossed between every pose. I haven't been able to lift all the way since before my surgeries. There is this point where the pecs engage that is filled with discomfort. I have lots of these little "post-surgery issues" Sometimes they are lazy excuses but, when it comes right down to it, I simply don't feel like it isn't "bad pain" yet. I have little issues too... like there are certain poses where I can't get squashed more even if I want to. Mari B will never be the same because I can't flatten the front of my body. I also have one of those little pains in Kapotasana. It is on the left side. I still can't take my hands over head to drop back... it stretches that side too much. Silly because that would help me but there is too much discomfort yet. So when I get down there, the right hand goes to the heel but I have a moment on the other side where I just don't want to be. Kapotasana was still great though. I actually liked it.

For the first time since the day I started practicing ashtanga, I actually *felt* that maybe, one day, years from now, Bakasana B might be attainable. I actually jumped to my elbows today and landed it... I only held it for the splitest of seconds but I actually did land.

The rest of the day was work, work, work but I did feel some semblance of inner peace.