I have learned many lessons over the course of the last 7 days.

For those of you who will understand and absorb this, I *billed* 107 hours from Saturday of last week to Friday of this week as well as about 10 hours yesterday and 8 today.

The value add?

- I now understand that I will never allow this again. Nope, notta, not going to do it. Over my edge, over the line of reason.

- I now understand that I will, do and likely will continue to have absolute complete moments of hysteria... and that that's okay. It's who I am.

- I now understand how very little sleep a human being needs and how stupid it is to do that to yourself.

- I now know what Tiffany meant when she told me that THAT experiene can evoke THAT emotion.

- I now know that feeling safe means feeling vulnerable and special.

- I now know that I am way too analytical and sometimes I need to find the creativity.

I'm sure I know a host of other things too. I'm also quite confident that this knowledge could have been gained in so many more healthful ways. Hey, at least I'm not in England, traveling to Europe for the first time in my life and literally not leaving my hotel room for 7 days except for two meetings at an office building... I know that person and that sucks more.