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I haven't had a day off of work in a couple of weeks I think.
I haven't had more than two hours of sleep in 3 days.
I went to give blood today... I showed up at 2:30. Apparently I was supposed to be fasting but I didn't know it. When they asked I said "Oh, that's okay, I haven't eaten since 6pm last night and today I've had one cup of coffee... is that fasting enough?" The blood trickled out... I turned white.
I haven't done yoga in weeks. I'm crushed.
I've cried three times in the last couple of days from pure utter exhaustion and stress.
Yes, I know... I know... I know that I am killing myself for nothing and I know that it's just work and I know that I have to take better care of myself and I know that I'm insane and I know all those things.... but, it is what it is today.
Tomorrow (or whenever tomorrow actually comes), tomorrow... I'll manifest change.
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"tomorrow... I'll manifest change."
you've been saying that now forever.
Talk is cheap.
start now.
c'mon, Jules. you're killing yourself for what?
Posted by: DjM | February 7, 2008 8:30 AM
I no longer know but when I deliver this project on Friday I am going to takea step back and think about it.
Posted by: Julie | February 7, 2008 10:29 AM
I learned Meditation in India...it has helped me stay calm amid chaos here since my return. You may want to just try sitting quietly for a bit each day. It does help~
Blessings my friend~
Tracy
Posted by: tracy | February 7, 2008 11:56 AM
You are so good lookin' ; )
I wanted to say someting positive
hang tough, my friend, it'll pass, it always does
Posted by: Shayna | February 7, 2008 12:05 PM
You've got me worried, girl :-(
Posted by: V | February 7, 2008 1:08 PM
Come to intro to 2nd tomorrow, I am teaching, it will be fun :)
Kiran
Posted by: kiranken@pacbell.net | February 7, 2008 6:20 PM
I agree, come on, talk is cheap. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.
What ever your changes are they certianly do not seem to be working??
You are so vague, who knows whats going on.
You seemed much happier before all the "change"
Posted by: hh | February 7, 2008 10:38 PM
hh you are right... the changes aren't working. But it isn't those changes which are the issue.. it is work... too much of it. I just have to deliver this portal... tomorrow... then next week time in the mountains... and a reevaluation of how my work life goes.
Then the next week Seattle...
Intro to 2nd..ha.. I probably can't touch my toes right now but.. if I can get out of here mabye ;)
Posted by: Julie | February 8, 2008 1:08 AM
Hi! I stumbled upon your blog. I am an Ashtanga Yoga student and in the past 2 weeks have found very little time for practice, my husband or myself. It has all gone to work. I understand the stresses. But tomorrow I am going to ensure I leave work on time to head to the studio to practice. Little steps right!?
Posted by: Flo | February 10, 2008 7:04 PM