Dogs are great. My Dog will wait for me downstairs, quietly wagging her tail, at the turn from the kitchen to go upstairs. She'll wait at the first step, then the first flight, then finally at the top until she makes sure, at each wait, that I'm still behind her. Then she ensures that I sit down on the bed before she plops herself down in front of the fire and quietly begins snoring (and sometimes whimpering -- those must be scary dreams).

Loyalty.

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I used to think I had a lot of loyalty. I think I still do but I'm so confused and going through such a state that I question everything I am, including my sanity.

If I stop and think of ALL the things I'm dealing with, if I listed them here in my blog, each and every one of you would completely leave in outrage. Hell, I might be one of them. As singular entities they aren't too bad but piled together, yes, my friends, I am insane. I have gone way too far into some other realm away from inner peace. I feel very "stuck" in some ways and in other ways just completely amazed at the levity. It's that fine balance you know. If the stuck ways were greater than the levitational moments, the balance would tip one way or the other but I think I've gotten to the top of the totem pole... that place where the balances can't tilt one way or another... will one every over fill?