Oh My Word! I heard it is supposed to snow tomorrow. SNOW! Listen Gods, I don't do snow. Nope, I don't want to be in the snow unless I have big huge snowboots to go out in, a glass of red wine and a fireplace to come back to (or, hell, spend the day in front of). Snow... as if.

I haven't made it to David's this trip despite my best internal intentions to not let travel interfere. The larger problem is that I don't rent a car while up here and that puts me at the mercy of borrowed cars or hitching a ride. I did practice this evening though. I wore a ton of layers and drew an immense heat. It was late so I was open and it got to be the exact kind of practice I needed. Solitary, feels good physically and unrushed. I don't know how long I actually practiced but I did do half of primary and my poses in second (minus Supta Vajrasana 'cause I just couldn't figure out how to do that on my own) plus a bunch of dropbacks. It was great.

I also got to realize tonight just how much I love to have just me time. I've always been a fairly solitary person and always needed some decompress time. I can remember The Best Friend telling me how I would come home from work and go into my room for awhile until I could be civil and social again. I think over the years of being a parent, I've forgotten how much I am like that... so, it was nice tonight when everyone left the office and I could take a hot shower, eat a bowl of yogurt and listen to silence. Ah... yes... I remember that drink.

I'm getting short sips of another drink I've tasted before. When you feel something you know is a truth and yet you desperately don't want to trust your intuition. It could be about anything really --- work, relationships, your favorite deoderant getting discontinued (yes, I still mourn the day).. whatever.. it's the same niggle, the thought that keeps putting itself front and center, until you stop and recognize it is doubt or fear or something akin to one of those emotions... and, yet, even with the recognition, you can't quite make out a clear picture of what it is applicable to... it's just just a fuzzy face that hasn't quite materialized.