Lost an entire blog post... don't you hate when that happens?

Last night ended up being just crappy. I was having problems at work and I went off on my partner... laid into him and then decided it would be smarter to step away from the keyboard and computer rather than hearing his response and engaging in a discourse. So I spewed and ran away. Very, very mature.

I got up at 5:30 intending to work and not practice. Afterall, I took the night off and I have so much work to do. As I pulled myself out of bed I thought "Well, this is stupid. It's a job. I need to practice. I will practice." So I went. I was all the way through standing when pranayama finished up. My back was feeling really good all the way through first... right up until I hit Kapotasana and then, for whatever reason, it just hurt. I uttered "Not today" during my adjustment... and just grabbed mid-foot. I was happy with that today. Then I got to enter my circus act of Bakasana B. Kick up into handstand with my teacher assisting, lower knees to chest and try to land into Bakasana. Only when he lowered me and my knees got to my elbows, I wasn't balanced, he went to let go and I said "I'm going to faceplant!" Instead I lowered my head and sorta did a Bhujapindasana imitation.

After class I asked my teacher about that entry. I explained that I don't feel anything in my bandhas or legs... but my arms feel weak and I feel like my chest gives out. He asked if I had any nerve endings in there that didn't work. Uh, yea, ya think :) I asked him what I could do to get stronger. He told me if I don't want to go to the gym, "Practice and all is coming." Then he told me we will enter Bakasana B from a headstand everyday... "Something to look forward to," as he walked away.

Yes, indeed, something to look forward to.

I have other things to look forward to this week as well. A boatload of work that seems to ever diminish in size, kid events, my business partner coming to town, time in L.A., seeing Jenna... really amazing potential business opportunity....

Her first Indian Princess campout, she's amazingly beautiful: