Today just blew me away. I woke up this morning to the bright sunlight. Somewhere after 5am when the sun first came up. It was my first rise and shine with Surya on this new journey of mine (for which clearly some blinds are in order). The length of self-analysis and the complete wonderment at nearly every moment of my life is flat out mind blowing. I question every move, every thought, every action. What is me?

I decided I need to have a yogi get together here... get the energy into my rooms, into my life.... I haven't been able to practice ... this morning a meeting scheduled overnight (subsequently cancelled at 10am :<), then a mad dash to Trader Joe's to buy food and supplies, a call to IKEA to find the missing #1 box on the bed I bought (which they couldn't find and apparently I was never charged for as a unit), a Rolfing session (much easier than ankles, today we did hips and shoulders), a meeting with massively large law firm and the San Diego County fair with my family for 6 hours (I hate that place).

The kids are fast asleep in their bunk bed after a night at the fair and a big huge ice cream cone filled with sugar. In the morning we are all excited... we are going to run to the grocery store and get some blueberries and whatever else looks good... then we are going to make pancakes. I am so excited. I can't wait to make pancakes.. and just make the pancakes.

For the vagueness, I apologize. Truly, I have debated how much to post publically. To me, it seems really obvious, especially if you've been a long time reader.. and I suppose it depends on what you feel is "drastic." The moves I've made recently in my life are, overwhelmingly, drastic. I am still a hung jury on whether drastic and devastating have anything in common as adjectives. I don't necessarily feel devastated... but I wonder if I'm missing something.

In truth, I feel like a big huge spotlight has been shown on me... I see it... okay... I see it.

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What am I to you?

Today's Rumi:

You have said what you are.
I am what I am.
Your actions in my head,
my head here in my hands
with something circling inside.
I have no name
for what circles
so perfectly.