You'd think I would have taken a picture but my extra time for taking pictures has gone along with my desire to do asana. I'm in a down place right now... I have no time to make sense out of life.

This whole career thing was a pretty good idea. I'm totally 100% glad that I made the change, took the challenge and brought myself to this level.

Now, I'm over it. It just isn't worth it. The Husband and I talked this evening and we both agree something has to give. We took all afternoon and cleaned out the kid's rooms. 6 trash bags full of stuff.

We felt light after.

So we packed up some sandwiches, fruit, cheese and a bottle of wine, put the leash on the dog, winter fleece on and headed to the cliffs at 15th Street for dinner. On the way we talked about change and the inevitable change that is coming. For the past 12 years, if anything, we both always recognize when mass peak has come...

It's a bit of bizarre situation for me. As the wife and mother, I feel a huge responsibility to give up my career, take a step back and be home more with the kids, being more of a wife. The truth of the matter is, I also want to do that. The part of me that believes we are all equal thinks, well, I am on a faster, more in demand position right now, so, shouldn't I tell The Husband to end his career and hang out more at home. I am not sure he wants that though or that he has the type of job that lends itself to something part-time.

We stayed, watching the sunset over the ocean, until it was too cold to enjoy it.

Last night we went to a lovely wedding. It was for two yoga students so it was a merry social occasion. The wedding was lovely. In the course, I was talking with a local teacher who mentioned that Mysore isn't a big fan of blogs. She wondered why people want to read or write about practice. I told her the story of New York, the Caring of Julie by the NYC Ashtanga community, the people I've met who are amazing that I'd otherwise not know... I find blogging invaluable from a community perspective.

I am tinkering with a few ideas. I have been tinkering with them for awhile but they haven't been rooted enough to mention them. I've been toying with going veggie for awhile again. I do this sometimes, if you've been reading my blog long enough you probably recognize it. I get sick of eating meat, convince myself I was perfectly healthy veggie... I stop eating it... and 4-6 months in, I start to feel all the thyroid-ic symptoms again. So I'm tinkering. I'm also thinking I need to start a home practice. No, this isn't some ridiculous ploy to get out of Bakasana (though, it's a tempting enough reason) but it is getting harder and harder to make it all the way to the studio for Mysore practices. We just start too late here in SoCal for people who work. I figure at least until we work this thing out, it's the best thing to do. Now I just have to find the motivation to do it.