I started out my morning at around 1am... I woke.. wondered why my body was awake when my mind wasn't... then I heard the door slightly open and saw The Daughter at the door.. bad dream... something about elephants... she climbs into bed.. sleep becomes elusive.

I got up and go to spend two hours with the dentist. I hate the dentist.

With a half hour between dentist and The Professional, I raced home only to be met by a call from The Professional regarding the lack of insurance coverage. I spent the next 20 minutes on the phone working it out.... changed into business casual clothes and sped off...

Please note you have not heard about any ingestion of food to this point; however, I did have one cup of coffee.

The Professional visit was interesting. It would not be fair of me to go into details but it was interesting and it was scary and it did harbor some hope. We had such a wonderful weekend together... the kind where I could see promise and see hope and see our family... I just don't know... we'll see.

I left, late... and drove up to Orange County for multiple professional reasons... none of which I can really go into here. Suffice it to say, I have to make a decision that would allow me to:

- grow my career
- support myself if necessary
- offer stability if that necessity arises (up to now it hasn't mattered)
- and that which stimulates me intellectually
- oh and let's not forget that normally I have a yoga practice which factors into this.

At 6:34, I still had not eaten and I had no money in my wallet. I opted to drive 80mph home (shhh don't tell anyone) instead of stopping.

I am now drinking a lovely glass of wine in the lovely Riedel glasses that Kiran, bless her heart, gave me.

Who said the body needs food?

In positive goal attaining news I:

- made a definitive date with B for dinner
- called Wiley (only The Best Friend gets this reference) and spoke to her for the first time in 9 months
- got a lovely email from The Other Best Friend (CONGRATULATIONS!!!) and actually responded

(B -- don't forget to bring your lens... yoga pictures next week .. what day?)