Goodbye Big Apple
It's 8am. I was hope all night. The Maracaine must have worn off at some point and the pain kept coming on stronger and stronger... I also started itching all over. I fidgeted and tossed and turned, got in a fight with Lucy The Cat over who was allowed to sleep where and finally, after my second dose of the Hydro-stuff got a half hour of sleep here and there after 4am. At least I'm just flying today... it's gonna be a tough day, I'm really uncomfortable and have some actual pain. If I had known how much better I felt yesterday and how coherent, I would have just flown home while the good drugs were still in my system.
Last night I got to meet Sweaty Brain and allow him to wait on my hand and foot as well. Perhaps all this is my karmic lesson in learning how to accept help. Or perhaps I do too much yoga.... or perhaps it just is. I suppose it doesn't really matter. Sometime in the middle of the night I regretted doing this but I suppose there are no do-overs and so here I am having to deal.
I need to write my teacher and let him know I'll be gone again for awhile. I was admiring my bicep last night and thinking how fast it will go away.. how much the road ahead is filled with work both mentally and physically... and how many times I can revisit this place.
It is now my solemn promise that the next time I visit New York City it will be ONLY for fun. Only for fun.
I hope the pain gets better otherwise normal life, kids, cooking, driving is going to impossible. I know I can't drive right now, probably can't lift a pan (well I know I can't since the coffee cup got heavy this morning)... and I have to explain all this to the kids again.
Road to Recover... here I come.
In good news, I realized, it's the perfect time to get that tattoo -- can't practice anyway.
Comments
Wow, I take a break from blog trolling on Ashtangi.NET for almost a week and so much has happened. My heart goes out to you J, I'm glad the operation didn't seem like a complicated one and that you're ok for the most part.
Many well wishes from Australia for a speedy recover and speedy return to Ashtanga!
Posted by: Sue | July 29, 2006 7:46 AM
Julie--thinking of you and praying for your speedy recovery and return to practice. Namaste, Suzie.
Posted by: suzie | July 29, 2006 8:53 AM
Julie - wonderful to hear that the first part of the process is done. Pace yourself with the recovery. Be good to yourself. Sending you all good wishes.
Posted by: reena | July 29, 2006 9:40 AM
{{Julie}} (internet hugs)....
I am glad that things went relatively smoothly (what's a bit of tape on a nostril when the health and aesthetics of your breasts are at stake, right?), and I am glad that you stayed comfy at KJS's place. I would have loved to have hosted you, even in my absense...I even made up my bed to look like a hotel bed....with top sheet, a fresh cotton blanket and the duvet folded in thirds at the foot of the bed (my kids, at least, said it looked like a hotel...!) and placed a stack of Ashtanga books on my nightstand - John Scott, David Swenson and even Beryl BB (just for laughs).
But again, I am just happy that you were comfy and well taken care of. It is hard for me to even fathom how difficult it must have been for you to have to swallow the fact that you had to have this surgery, plan for it, have it and recover from it all in a matter of days, and all 3,000 miles away from your family, from Kiran and your other home friends, even from the fresh ocean air (although, of course, never far from your spiritual family of worldwide ashtangis).
If anyone is still reading this long-winded comment, please note that Julie is a dead ringer for Julia Roberts and that when we were walking down the street, I am sure that people thought that they were looking at a celebrity and, I don't know, perhaps her very short personal assistant? Of course, the reality is that in our ashtangi world, Julie really IS a celebrity....although the ladies who lunch and NYC tourists might not know that...
Healing vibes all around....
Oh, and on a mundane note, the itching is an indication of an allergic response to the pain meds. Notice, I didn't say, an allergic reaction, because it doesn't rise to the level that the words "allergic reaction" imply. But to be on the safe side, if you ever need pain meds again, and hopefully you never will, I would recommend asking for a different formulation.
L
Posted by: Lauren | July 29, 2006 10:33 AM
Hi Julie. Sending warmest wishes and praying that you have a speedy recovery. Hope that you'll be getting a lot of help with the kids.
Caroline
Posted by: Caroline | July 29, 2006 10:52 AM
try to remember in the days ahead that your physical limitations are only temporary and like everything it will pass. let this be a journey into the true nature of yoga. i will be thinking of you. :) all my best.
Posted by: harmony | July 29, 2006 12:33 PM
Hi Julie I've been a silent reader of yours for a while and whilst you dont' know me ~I would like to wish you a speedy recovery and am also sending you the best possible wishes and a big hug.. Abbyxxx
Posted by: abby | July 29, 2006 3:11 PM
Hi Julie,
Due to being a negligent blog reader, and away from the studio, I didn't realize what was happening with you. My thoughts and prayers are with my back bending sister. Thank you for all that you give.
With love,
Ed L
Posted by: ed | July 30, 2006 10:35 PM