I'm sitting here with a bowl of apples and yogurt reflecting on my day. Today I bit all my nails off, hemmed and hawed, couldn't make a decision which way to go wtih my code..fretted. Went to teach yoga for kids at lunch. It was fun today. They seemed wild so I told them class was gonna be extra hard and I was super strict with the kids who decided not to do poses. About half way through I had everyone's attention which is highly unusual... We did bakasana and parsva bakasana.. I'm surprised how many 5 year olds can do bakasana. We did Ustrasana and a verison of Laghu Vajrasana. We did Dhanurasana (with a swing by the teacher) and then Parsva a bunch of times, back and forth, back and forth! We did handstands (I helped), we did backbends and then I did a single dropback with each child. Lastly we did Bhekasana because apparently Tiff did this last week and they all think it is the absolute coolest.

After teaching I ran into my first ashtanga teacher in the parking lot of the health food store. She's totally out of ashtanga now and into some other form of yoga and still off on another plane. After talking to her, I very much in the vein of the Real Housewives of Carmel Valley, called my friend B to find out what she was really into as of late.

I finished up my day by literally talking to myself in front of my computer, swearing every other run of the debugger... then feeling like an idiot because all the attorneys around me could hear me... I'd going off like "okay so I got a -1 index and now I gotta get the first child of the 0 based index for the first child of it as a 1 based index.... okay... now I got my node... now .... " and on and on... I was so wrapped up in programmer hell that I seriously had to just say it out loud in order to keep it straight. In the end, I almost have a functioning application using ALL of the pieces.... oh it's so bandaided that I have comments around big chunks that says "DUMMED DOWN CODE" so I know to remove it later. It's horrendously bad coding, horrendously bad design but it works... at least, I think it works... I'll know more tomorrow when I work on it some.

It was 5:45 when I finally got the user interface working appropriately, using all the pertinent beta releases of software... now I just have to actually do the hard file manipulation and I'm good. The Husband called said GO GO GO .. GO TO YOGA... you'll feel better, things will be better GO TO YOGA. So I jammed in my car and got to the mat in time for the 6pm first series class at the club. I was so hyper from the stress that I ended up having a really killer practice. Just on it and everything was perfect and right... and I'm not talking about postures. It was wild though because I was so open and as we were doing the first poses of standing I was thinking "man, I'd like to do hanumanasana today" -- I don't often get to do that pose anymore since I don't have time to spare... it's one of the things we do at our studio but if it comes down to time, sitcking to the practice mean that's the one that goes. So it was really cool when we were in Prasarita C and the teacher (who rocks) told us to do Somakonasana. I was stoked. Wierd energy connections rock.

All in all a lovely brilliant practice and I DID feel better just like The Husband said. In Savasana I had this really wierd experience... I used to get it all the time, coincidentally and wierdly enough, at my first ashtanga teacher's studio.. it's this sort of connection with the "spirit world" that I've gotten before... really prominent tonight... really physical. It was wierd.

Then I spent the next hour thinking "Man, I'm so high I must come down!" I thought how wierd I'd feel that after I just got done explaining that I feel like I've just done drugs whenever I practice through to kapotasana... like you are more heady, more out there. First series makes me feel so grounded and heavy in a way. Second series seems to make me float somewhere higher... that can be a scary feeling sometimes.

Must work this weekend.. but am hoping to carve out a few hours for special things. Tiff's birthday and the kirtan on Sunday. Must make time to breathe too.