Last night I could have gone to practice. I convinced myself that I was being a motherly type and coming home to hang with the kids or whatnot but, in reality, I just had a miserable, crappy ass week and so I wanted to let loose on myself. I had this huge glass of wine, didn't make dinner (we had macaroni & cheese from a box *hands head in shame*) and then I ate like 20 chocolate covered banana chips. I felt horrid when I got up this morning but I knew I'd be okay enough to practice by 10. I got up and was driving to The Son's baseball game when I thought "Hey, no caffeine today... that must be why I feel so crappy." So I stopped at Starbucks (ran into Dr. Mike, hey Dr. Mike!) and got the fix. Here Joey is hanging up the caffeine hat and I'm asking whether it comes in any other colors. Tonight I bought Starbucks Double Shot things... I'm gonna try those and see if they are any good for the days when I'm in need of some caffeine quickly ;) I'm a total drug addict. Scary.

I then took 800mg of Motrin and had some water. I have never a) taken that much Motrin at one time or b) ever taken anything when I wasn't pretty damn desperate with the exception of my hodgepodge and cupboard full of homeopathic, herbal, Ayruvedic, Native American, Chinese rememdies. I don't think arnica does work actually.

So when I got to practice I was a bit amped out. But it's fortunate that I get to be teacher's pet when Kiran is around and she does special stuff just for me (I also highly respect how she manages to make everyone else in the classroom feel that the pose, however effortlessly and impossible she makes them, is within their reach. She asked the class if they had anything they really wanted to do. I had just finished telling her how much I didn't want to do kapotasana yesterday and how, in part, the idea of practicing to kapotasana drew whatever discipline I left right out of me. When no one answered her she said "Julie? Kapotasna." Right Kapotasnana. I knew I was in trouble. Bless her heart, you can see Kiran's teacher in her teaching and so, when we did the anjaneyasana (or whatever it is), I knew she was really gonna throw in kapotasana. We did a whole bunch of cool stuff. I wondered today if I'll ever be able to put my arms straight in Bakasana due to my elbows... as soon as I push all the weight down on my wrists, boom, elbows pop all the way out. Kapotasana... oh kapotasana. If you get me in there I can actually feel some degree of comfort... Kiran cranked me out today... I think my fingers were halfway or more up my feet. I got up with little effort. I think did 5 dropbacks and standups... no issues. Isn't it wierd... how it can just change on an instant.

I watched a man become violent at the bookstore today... he actually scared me. I was holding a book called "God Makes The Rivers Flow" and it's basically poetry from all different religions about God. I wished I could have given it to him.

I Elizabeth is on... if you know me at all, you know that I'm totally stoked to watch it.