Last night as my dad's 60th birthday. I had a bit too much wine... I told myself that was why I was staying in bed this morning. I did lots of things to convince myself it was something other than it was. But really it was just that I felt and feel like this horrendous, non-existent mommy in my children's lives and I knew that I couldn't practice today. Oh I tried to feel enough leverage towards selfishness right up until about 8pm tonight when I finally just caved in and accepted I wasn't going to practice. Here's the thing about not pracitcing asana. It isn't really that I don't think "Hey, a day off, no biggie... I've had a few days a week, so be it... it's there when it's there." It's that I think more about how skipping just one day, there's this noticeable hit on my discipline. Kinda like the first bite of chocolate... you always say it'll only be one bite. :)

Tonight I listened to David's new CD. If I haven't mentioned more fully in my other posts about practices up there in Seattle, I should now. I really enjoy the energy there. I really enjoy the quiet and inspirational message that David sends. I love the new house. I love the peace in the room of the practitioners there. I picked up a couple of his CDs while I was up there but haven't had a chance to listen to it until now. Well, I've had a chance but I've been a bit pre-occupied with all these groovy bands ;) I really loved this CD too. Well at least the songs I listened to. Is that David singing? I don't know where the actual CD cover went, I tend to lose those after I rip them. I know, too, that The Daughter is going to love the Sita Ram Hanuman song. I can't wait to play it for her.

The kids got up at 5:45ish... we left a little note in front of their door that instructed them to find eggs which had clues to their Spring Fairy basket. The Son must have walked by his 5 times before he found it. He was so excited and so all over. I think they still really buy into it. I'm a little shocked about The Son in that respect but very glad nonetheless. They both had written a letter to the Spring Fairies last week so the Fairies were quite sure on just what they wanted. I hate to say it but if you're gonna give your kids a gift, it is really satisfying to see them get just what they wished for. There's something magical for the parent about that. We then went to see Ice Age The Meltdown which was quite cute The theater had just switched to digital movies and, I have to say, it was pretty amazing. The animation was wonderous.

I made a big huge dinner tonight. Paella. We said our blessing which we used to say everynight and have suddenly found it being something we only have time for on holidays. That sucks. We used to do family meeting night once a week... we're always running around now trying to fit in "life" in 2 short hours a day. We did that tonight too.... then we went for a really long walk... down trails we used to go down everyday when The Son was an only child... we marveled at the trees and the growth... it was amazing... sometimes it is wild that we've lived in this house over 10 years... I guess I just never expected to be here where we are that long.

LA tomorrow. I also tried to feel un guilty enough that I could drive up to LA tonight, see JJSSI, practice iwth N&K tomorrow morning... but I knew I couldn't do that either. It's just not fair to them. Tonight during family meeting night, The Daughter asked me if I could work from home again :( Hey, at least The Son said he didn't care ;-&

Rock on.