Last night The Husband and I slipped into the jacuzzi... As we were interacting I realized something really heavy... what yoga does to my life... it brings me into the here and now. When I'm practicing (and I don't mean just asana), I'm fully in the now. My asana time was so mind blowing yesterday that I spent all day in the here and now... that's that floaty, can't come down feeling that leaves you high.. it's the tangible reality that right now is all that matters and what happens next is really what happens next. As mentioned before, there's been some interesting emails between a few of us female ashtangis lately about marriage with non-ashtangis and the issues therein. We've been discussing the bumps in the road, the issues that come about, the disagreements, the perception of the practice, selfishness, etc. What I realized last night is that the single largest issue of my particular instance of being married to a non ashtangi is that I live in the now... I just don't care to talk about what is going to happen next year or the year after or what we should do to the backyard... if it isn't something I have to deal with NOW then I'm just content to explore the moment, live the moment. I'm not sure that I have ever been as rooted in the right now as I am now in my life... adn I truly believe that is what yoga has brought to the table for me.

It will be interesting to see if The Husband tries Kiran's classes next month and what he thinks... in the meantime, I opted out of Mysore this morning so that The Husband could surf. With Disneyland on the agenda for our entire weekend (blah), I wanted to make sure he had his time too.... I know that it isn't just yoga that can expand one's horizon, it's the devoted passion to whatever your calling is. I hear and know people that get this from surfing, hiking, mountain biking, kayaking..whatever... Since Intro to Second is now a viable option for me, I told him to just go and I'll practice tonight. It was funny because during this discussion I really had a difficult time deciding... on the one hand, doing an Intro to Second class allows me to explore the rest of the first half of second beyond Laghu Vajrasana. On the other hand, I'm not there yet and I found myself thinking "God, I'd miss doing my whole practice, I'd miss the comfort, like an old chair of my first series practice.... I'd miss those forward bends and my open hamstrings." Wierd, eh? I'd miss first series if I wasn't doing it everyday. It's just a part and parcel of my practice. Sometimes, when the ego is getting in the way, it is easy to think "move forward, let's just get to second series, when am I gonna split, when will I get the next pose" and this revelation was moving for me because I realized that second series is so mind blowing, no nerve ending opening and so raw, and first series is so grounding, like a nice soft blanket to caress you.

Intro to Second tonight.... let's see how long it takes me to come down from that!

Today is the first time I am at work with my arm tattoo exposed. Numerous comments on it... not sure it was a good thing but I might as well rock my entire work day... as I was leaving The Husband told me I looked sexy today... the last thing I want to look at work. I think I'll just sit here behind my desk until it's time to leave :)