I woke up pissed off today. Or maybe it wasn't pissed off but just emotionally drained and tired and frustrated and grumpy... The Son had an accident in the middle of the night, The Daughter decided to join us at some point before dawn... maybe lack of sleep or maybe I'm just in one of those deep low valleys... I wonder if buying shoes would make it all go away ;)

I did, however, manage to practice.... not a real practice but a semblance of one... I went to the health club at noon planning to do a short second series practice. I decided to try Kapotasana again to see if I could get up. I think practicing for longer would have heated me up before because I wasn't very open (which might be more related to my grumpiness than not). I still can't get up in LaghuVajrasana... I just don't get that pose... I was really tight when I tried kapotasana today... I could just barely get my toes... but I did manage to come up with only a minor flail with one arm. I did a bunch of backbends. I even laid down on my mat and visualized coming up... but it didn't happen... and, of course, my mood completely plummeted after that. Talk about total and complete attachment to the physical...

It didn't help that I then weighed myself...

I then spent the rest of the afternoon completely in a whirlwind trying to learn AJAX (not as in dishwashing soap) and whether to use a wrapper for dot net and what not. Oh the joys of writing code. I came home just as grumpy as when I left... I see no end in sight to my mood... I miss my lazy days of kids and yoga and work as the third thing on the list...

I think I'm gonna go look at shoes.