This morning I left the house early... but when I got to the new studio, I could see the pranayama class in the room, the screen wasn't up. In an effort to be respectful, I didn't want to start practicing but I was also a bit ancy because I needed to be out of there early. In the end, more people showed up early to wait, I guess, so I just started practicing. I felt really bad when people started practicing early after they noticed I was. I suppose I'll talk to Tim about it again but with the added distance, I really must have that jump start to the practice.

The room was crowded. First day in the new studio and many, many faces were there. Pranayama was larger than I've seen it in the past year. We were inches away from each other like it used to be, there was heat... lots of good energy. In physical progress, I was able to pull off Padma Mayruasana both times today (after Garbha P and then after Baddha Padmasana). Pretty interesting as that was the pose I've been saying I would never be able to do again. Other mindless musings over practice: Without R, who's gonna put me in DwiPada before Supta K now *sob*; all practice I kept feeling like I was forgetting something, a pose, something... I never figured out if I was missing something but I was so spaced out and out of my body that everytime I'd come around I'd wonder "did I skip a pose?"; backbends actually felt quite nice today... on my last one, Tim did something different today, instead of resisting his pressure, he had his hands on my quads somewhere and was sorta pushing more down then he said "come up" and I listened... and it felt like it was all me. After dropbacks with the one handed assist, my hand hit the wall but I pulled it off with ease... it's getting easier which means with time it's coming.

With KJS and V leaving the Blogosphere I feel some sort of empty knot... two of my favorite people and bloggers... It almost feels like part of my Internet family has left the buliding :) I've considered many times in the past taking my blog offline... sometimes when I worry that someone I know in real life has found it and other times when I think I'm even boring myself (which actually happens quite often) but, in the end, I keep asking myself the question "how long can I keep doing this?" and then I'll look through the archives and realize that my kid's first steps, first words, my first tries at things, whatever is all in here and I totally suck at doing baby books. Here it is blog, baby book, yoga journal, recovery journey... all jumbled together in this public space that makes some people think I'm batty and others think I'm just plain wierd.