The Husband slept through the night last night; however, The Daughter woke up at sometime mid-sleep and climbed her way into our bed. For you non-parental units out there, this equates to pushing me as close to the edge as humanly possible to still be considered on the bed and then kicking me all night long. In the larger pictures, this means I got little sleep again last night. When the alarm went off at 6, I was in the midst of this amazingly vivid dream. I dreamt that I was on a business trip but had forgotten all of my clothes. I was madly trying to find clothes to wear but the stores were closed and FedEx wouldn't make it by the next day. I went to the wrong hotel first (a Howard Johnson) and then finally found my hotel (a W) where I found all kinds of hipster clothes in the closet in single digit sizes, mostly smaller than the age of my youngest child. I, with effort, attempted to get something to fit me and then decided I was going to find the yoga place since I did happen to have my yoga mat with me (hey, at least even in my dreams I know what's really important). I started out searching for the yoga place in what appeared to be a large market with lots of stalls and stores... the last one was called "Thai Chai" and was full of goodies and cool looking people but I knew I had to find the yoga place so I left and back tracked finally asking a lady if she knew where it was. She told me it was on the other side of town and that for a tourist fee she'd take me. Looking at the clock (which just so happened to be in the middle of the market area), I was already 10 minutes late and asked her how long it would take. She told me 5 minutes or a half hour.... I decided to give it a shot and I climbed into a small two-seater black convertible with her. As she began to drive, she headed for what appeared to be a lake and kept driving. I screamed and tensed up, she told me to relax and began laughing and then the car was "swimming" through the water. Under the water were all these men with red lungi type things on and long black dreadlocks. She told me to be careful, that they'd attempt to "get me" and I shouldn't let them. Suddenly the car flipped over much like a kayak might flip and when we were righted I told her it was probably pointless now as my mat was all wet and I couldn't practice anyway... she told me we had to finish what we started and I noticed another one of the underwater men coming to get me... and BOOM my alarm was sounding, I couldn't find it and then I thought "Darnit, I don't want to practice today." Guilt set in when I realized Tiffany was planning on my meeting her at 6:30 for our early morning practice so I climbed out of bed and headed to practice.

I found a spare heater in the prop room and set it up, it helped. We were finishing Prasaritas when Pranayama was done... Practice today was okay. My muscles seem tired. Too many backbends probably. I don't remember anything of note... Rich put me in Dwi Pada before Supta K today. I like it much much more. I was able to hold my legs behind my head myself while he helped me slowly slower instead of crash land. I lean too far back while getting into it though and I can't keep them there while coming up. Lately, my right arm is REALLY bothering me in Kurmasana... it hurts at the elbow while my arm is out straight. Then when coming up from Supta K, I feel the same tension in my elbow. This most likely has something to do with my hyperextension but I haven't yet figured it out. When I got to Baddha K, my right inner hip just felt all whacked out. Rich came to assist and I completely tensed up. As he was helping he said "Let your mind go." I think it worked for like a second before I was back to pure panic... complete and utter panic.

Backbends simply sucked today. I didn't want to do them and I felt no joy.... I felt dread at the idea of trying to stand up today. I'm WAY WAY too focused on it. I need to let it go and just let it be. I was so overwhelmed by it that I purposefully didn't have Tim help me with dropbacks today. I stood up after 6 backbends like everyone else does and waited for Rich to catch my eye. What's really funny is that I've, apparently, become totally dependent on Tim's method of dropbacks and I had a REALLY hard time with Rich's... so much so, I could barely come up on the last one.

Tomorrow I'm up in L.A. all day -- I leave at 6am and probably won't be home until after 9. This means no practice tomorrow and I have to say, I feel happy about that. I need a down day. I need a break... my muscles do, my head does and I need to let go just a little bit.

The person I have to go visit in Chicago told me today that he's got lots of entertainment lined up... House of Blues and something else. How can I effectively do the peer mixing thing and still make early morning practices? He also told me I don't have to be in the office until 10. I wonder if that means I could make the Mysore practice with CK one day instead of just Moksha Yoga.

I downloaded the new CD from She Wants Revenge last night... has anyone listened to that? Very reminiscent of Joy Division... I'm still determining if I like it.