I forgot to mention something that Tim said on Sunday that I just loved and has really resonanted with me ever since (I realize I made a typo but frankly my head is so stuffed up I don't feel like backspacing)....

Before I started working again I was a deeply spiritual person. I still am a deeply spiritual person but it is far more internal now than it used to be. I used to celebrate all of the Pagan holidays... I used to make a big huge deal about them in fact. It was common for me to have a party on the solstice(s) but since I've become less social and more and more busy being a working mom trying to fit in a daily yoga practice, most of that has gone by the wayside. When I was pregnant with The Daughter, the song I listened to over and over, meditated to, labored to even was Returning by Jennifer Berezen. I've mentioned it before but basically the chorus is "Returning to the Mother of us all" over and over for a half hour.

On the Summer Solstice this past month I was telling The Husband how much I mourn the time I used to take for that outward festive spirituality. I used to love building an altar to the seasons, making crafts with the kids or with friends, having people over to celebrate our connection to nature. We talked about how I have to prioritize and, sadly, that's one of those things that I just simply don't have time for. I still respect and cherish all of it but I don't have the time to really go full bore anymore.

On Sunday, about the end of class, it was hotter than hot and Tim made a comment. It's actually the same comment I've heard him make once before, my first Intro to Second class.. he said "Some of you might want your mommy right about now." He paused for a bit and then said "She's right under you."

It's funny because this isn't a monumentally "new" statement for me... but it was a perfectly timed reminder that I do celebrate that spirituality... everyday... head on the floor, bringing the energy into me with the breath... I thought of this today while I was doing my non-practice out on the ugly walkway at this hotel... right under me.

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For about 10 minutes today I could actually breathe...