I actually willingly, for no outside reason, skipped yoga tonight. This is the second time that I've done this. Frankly, the sleep deprivation is catching up to me again and I was simply unable to attempt the Vinyasa Flow class tonight -- it's hard and takes strength and, shit, I'm unable to think of the word for being able to make it a long time..oh stamina. I simply don't have stamina tonight. Last night I cheated on my push-ups, I didn't think I could get away with it tonight. The Husband says I listened to my body and that's a good thing. I'm angry that sleep deprivation (i.e., The Daughter's non sleep patterns) is hindering my passion. Selfish but true all the same.

I've been reading some Rumi. WOW. I'm just amazed at the depth of Rumi's poetry. Here's the one I'm digesting today:

Wean Yourself

Little by little, wean yourself.
This is the gist of what I have to say.

From an embryo, whose nourishment comes in the blood,
move to an infant drinking milk,
to a child on solid food,
to a searcher after wisdom,
to a hunger of more invisible game.

Think how it is to have a conversation with an embryo.
You might say, "The world outside is vast and intricate.
There are wheatfields and mountain passes,
and orchards in bloom.

At night there are millions of galaxies, and in sunlight
the beauty of friends dancing at a wedding."

You ask the embryo why he, or she, stays cooped up
in the dark with eyes closed.

Listen to the answer.

There is no "other world."
I only know what I've experienced.
You must be hallucinating."

As a side note. In trying to decide just what one would wear to Ani DiFranco concert it came to my attention that my dear husband donated my Doc Martens. Now, granted, they haven't been foremost in my thought for awhile but to donate my Docs. He's just lucky he saved my custom painted (with Joy Division mountains) leather jacket. Needless to say, I'm shoeless in the short skirt department -- I've never worn a short skirt with anything other than Docs. What could I buy that is cheap (I haven't worked in quite awhile) but fun?