The last couple of days I've been plagued by a horrendous pain in my back. Whether a result of things bubbling up to the surface via yoga or the one night I slept with my arm over my head ala The Daughter, I don't know. I spent a little over an hour today with one of my yoga instructors getting some bodywork that had me moaning in pain, cringing in pain and breathing through pain at various points. Then I went to my Vinyasa Flow class and remembered why I really like that class -- hell, I even got to *try* a handstand today but couldn't do it. The overextension in my elbows keeps me from really being able to balance with weight on my arms. :( Someday, we'll figure this out.

I've been really within myself the past couple months and even more so the past few weeks. I've distanced myself from my real life community -- something doesn't feel right about it. It feels halfway forced and halfway like I'm between worlds. I'm sad that I feel all the energy I put into forming that community of support was for naught but realize that it is my energy pulling away too -- there is a reason for it and I just haven't fully discovered it yet.