Vacation Blues
I'm back! Did ya miss me? We got home late Saturday but I just haven't had time to sit down and catch up here at Facing Inward. Our trip to Florida was fabulous -- our best family vacation yet. The weather was great, Lucia was amazing and we had such fun. You can check out some pictures here.
Because I can only admit it here -- one of the highlights of my trip was yoga. I did yoga all by myself in the yoga studio at the hotel. Why was it amazing? Imagine listening to your own ujai breath in a studio by yourself. What a way to learn to move your body with YOUR breath -- not your neighbors, not to the music but to your very own rhythm screaming loud and clear. Awesome. I even held a headstand longer than ever.
Tonight we had to go to a party for The Son's school. My friend that I was having the issues with was there. She just found out she's measuring 5.5 weeks bigger than her dates. Twins? I have to say that hearing her story really resonated deep for me. I have been mourning not having another child but I realize that I don't want another child either. I'm happy that I'm getting life back. I'm happy with sleep. I'm happy being able to do yoga. I have visions of future family vacations, things changing, things coming up and I have to say I don't want to start over again with another child. Isn't that selfish? But I'm happy to come to the realization.
Comments
I don't think that's selfish at all. It's knowing what is perfectly right for you and having the kyoons (HOW does one spell that??) to do it.
I know just how you feel about it as well. When looking into the future and all of the potential-- it is very exciting!
Welcome home! :-)
Posted by: rachael | October 1, 2002 4:01 AM
Your vacation & solo yoga sound wonderful!
RE: no more babies -- I'm there, though still deal with conflicting emotions over it from time to time. Part of me yearns for more, while another part yearns for life to move on, and in any event, the liklihood of going through it all over again is almost nil. On some level, I'm thankful for that.
Welcome back!
Posted by: Diane | October 1, 2002 9:44 AM
Swoon! Welcome back...you have such a great bhavana girl...yoga all by thyself...NICE!!! Isn't Florida grand? What did you end up carting to read?
Posted by: felicia | October 2, 2002 5:58 AM
What wonderful pics! I'm sure you had a great time :0)
Even with 5 kids (eek!!) ikwym about no more babies. I am sad that I won't ever again birth a baby, or have any of that experience again. Not sad enough to ever really DO it again, though.
-Bonny...looking forward to sleep again someday...
Posted by: Bonny | October 2, 2002 9:59 AM
Welcome Back! Glad you had a nice trip.
And I totally understand....I get pangs of envy when I see pregnant women or newborns, but not nearly enough to want to do it myself. Certainly not now, maybe not ever. I feel like I am just getting into my groove, and that is a good thing. :-)
Posted by: Debra | October 2, 2002 4:34 PM