Here's an example of how I overanalyze everything. The midwife assitant who assisted during The Daughter's birth used to come over a couple times a week and help me out with the kids. I was always home but a couple times The Husband & I went to a counselor while she had The Daughter asleep in the sling and The Son entertained outside. M is awesome. She's a phenomenal soul and she is amazing with kids. I trust her with my own implicitly. About 5 months into our arrangement, she just stopped calling... she left one Thursday saying she'd call about the following week and never called. I haven't heard from her since The Daughter was about 6 or 7 months old. She called a few days ago and talked with The Husband (I was not home). The Husband said she was really fishing around to see if we needed help but he got the feeling she wasn't going to ask outright. She said how often she thinks of our family and that she misses us. She asked him to have me call her back.

So why is this an example? For the past two days I've debated with myself... would I allow her to come and watch my kids again? Would she up and bail out on us again? What impact would that have on the kids (they both loved her)? Do I talk to her about how I felt or leave it alone (I always feel that when I say my peace, drama comes to center stage)? Then I think, My Goddess, Julie, just freaking call and say hello and stop thinking about it so much!