This Blog Is For Me
and if you are coming here with ill intent just leave. I have no ill will towards anyone. I have not grouped a single collective gathering of people together. I have not called names. I have not used profanity. I simply don't agree with many sentiments of many people. I haven't even begun to read the majority of written words concerning the latest issue at hand and I won't. What this issue has proved to me is that the same underlying intent, the same underlying anger, resentment and party line all still exist in one form or another. The same trust issues are there. The same collective group identification is still there. I don't want to be a part of it. So I'm done. I will no longer be posting at any parenting website other than MotherSpirit and at MotherSpirit I will not be posting anything of an intimate nature that could be remotely construed as potential fodder for an ongoing vendetta against me or my family (not that I believe anyone has one now but who the hell knows what goes on in the trenches of Internet life). This medium is dangerous. It is dangerous because one does not know who is sitting reading. One does not really know who is sharing. One does not know when the intent of those parties is going to change. Most importantly the fact that there are people and families on the other end of these postings seems to get forgotten most of the time. That is dangerous. It wouldn't be so dangerous if we were all hospital birthing, vaccinating, public school educating mainstream parents but simply because we are *not* puts us all on the wrong side of the governments tracks already. Anything, and I do mean anything, could lead you down a road of trouble. Some of us have already seen that in action and had to deal with it.
My blog, however, is mine. I like it. I have never used it to discuss online gossip. I have never used it as anything but a personal tool. If you are coming here looking for anything but information on my journey through life then leave and don't come back. I hold you no ill will please don't hold me any. I believe we can disagree and still respect. Many don't. That's fine we don't agree ;-)
I'll be getting a new ICQ as well. I won't be communicating with anyone that posts private emails, transcripts of ICQs or that I don't know well. I won't go there and I don't want to be around people that do. I use ICQ to talk to people wholly unrelated to parenting communities and actually enjoy keeping up with some of my friends but I won't let it be a tool that I have to wonder if my words will come back to haunt me. Nope, played that game before, won't do it again. If you are wondering if any of these sentiments apply to you... well, I can't answer that, only you can.
Namaste.
Comments
Julie, I can totally understand your decision to do this, and respect your right to withdraw from "online life". I know that we aren't close, but I had thought that we had worked out our past issues. It stings a little to see references to those issues in the last few days. I've apologized profusely and sincerely, and that's all I can do. Peace.
Posted by: Darcy | May 23, 2002 10:34 AM
Darcy,
I appreciate that it stings. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to point you out in particular in my example and that is why I didn't use your name. I'm sorry that I hurt you by using that example. I do and did accept your apology and I didn't mean to infer by my use of that example that I hadn't. I used that example because it was really applicable to what I was dicussing and, well, it happened. I guess I feel about it the way I feel about my childhood... I can forgive and accept an apology but that doesn't mean I'm going to forget it or never speak of it. However, I can also see that it does hurt you and I'm sorry. You can rest assured I don't plan on ever discussing things of this nature again. I wish you peace and love and light ;-)
Posted by: Julie | May 23, 2002 10:40 AM
Hi Julie,
I am very sad to read that you won't be posting at YAAPS anymore, I will sincerely miss that interaction with you. I hope that I am welcome to come here and interact with you. I have been enjoying slowly getting to know you again. I really do have a lot of respect for you, and you are someone that I wish that I knew better. One of my biggest online regrets in the past years has been hurting you. If I ever finally get my butt moved back to San Diego, I hope we can meet up again. I like you and care about you and I wish you very well on your life journey. :-)
Much Peace and Happiness to you and your Family.
Posted by: Debra | May 23, 2002 11:21 AM
Weird, I thought I posted here earlier, but anyway I just wanted to say that I enjoy reading your blog and find it interesting so I will probably be popping in from time to time :)
Posted by: Meagan | May 23, 2002 1:52 PM
Thanks to both of you... of course you are welcome Debra... anyone is. I'm not even saying there is even anyone out there that I don't want around. I'm just looking into the future here and the past and saying I don't want to be involved in anything ever again.
BTW, Debra, you might move back down here? Come! Come! Come! Ok, what does your DH do again? Mhmm....
Posted by: Julie | May 23, 2002 5:08 PM
Julie, I come because I enjoy your blog. I want to learn about things that are already part of your life...yoga, buddhism, etc. Your perspective on the things that are happening in your life opens my eyes sometimes on ways to see my own. That's why I'm reading.
Is it ok if I link your blog on mine? If you are changing your online habits I'm wondering if the links I come here through (probably different every time) will disappear. I hate having to hunt things down.
Posted by: Mina | May 23, 2002 8:16 PM
Mina, of course... I'm simply toning down my online life not asking anyone to cut my rope with a knife ;)
Posted by: Julie | May 23, 2002 8:27 PM
Be well, Julie.
Oh, BTW, did you ever get a package from me?
Posted by: Lady Sarah | May 24, 2002 8:04 AM
Well ever since we moved here we have been wanting to move back to SD! We never wanted to leave it to begin with. :-( DH grew up there and we were engaged and married there and it feels so much like ~home~.
DH is a computer analyst, specializing in CITRIX right now. He is networking genious! (Well IMO at least, I think he rocks!) :-)
Posted by: Debra | May 24, 2002 9:42 AM
And I can't spell! LOL Need....more.....coffee.....
Posted by: Debra | May 24, 2002 9:42 AM